the chances i missed

I had so many opportunities
So many perfect opportunities
But I always shut the door.
I had so many chances
So many perfect chances
But I never took them.
I always held back
Vowing time after time that the next would be different
But it never was.
I was so afraid of rejection
That I never even saw what was there.
The whole time
There was a spark.
I could have lit that one spark
And started the fire that I wanted to burn so badly
But I neglected that small flame.
And it flickered.
And went out.